It's like this rushing around me.  Like I'm in a freeze-frame, and everything else is a time-elapse.  It's like a river that's just rushing by that I want to be a part of but I feel like I might get carried away.  I don't want to just sit still and not do anything, but I don't know how to pick everything up and rejoin humanity.  Everything's moving so fast and everyone's got these big plans and I just don't know how I fit in.  I don't think that I do fit in, but I don't know if that's really the point.  I finally like who I am as a person, but now I can't remember how to relate to other people.  I can't remember how to move forward and do things with my life.  I feel like I'm this block of ice and I can't figure out how to melt and become something that moves again.  I don't know if this makes any sense, I just wish that I could understand what I'm thinking and how I'm feeling.  My dreams have been so vivid lately.  They've been depicting things that I can't imagine ever happening.  The thing is though, unlike completely unrealistic things that tend to happen in dreams, these things actually could happen if I were to let go and actually try something.

Frustrated.